Fandom as Life

I sometimes feel like a sheep because I have a tendency to follow people around LJ. They do something fun and then post about it so I think "That sounds fun" and I stop by. Long ago, I used to just stalk journals and wish that I could do the fun stuff that everyone was doing but it seemed like only the cool kids were doing things so I missed out on a lot of really cool stuff.

Then I got the nerve to join in on something and it changed my life. In some ways, it was a good thing and in others, it was the worst possible thing I could have done. If nothing else, it changed how I view the people around me on LJ. I'm not scared to do the cool things that other people are doing because I've realized they are just people. JUST PEOPLE. Like me. Like you. They're no one special... and they are the most special people on the planet.

Lately, I've been spreading myself thin, doing just about everything I can get my hands on. It's been nerve-wracking considering my muse has taken an extended vacation (although she hurried home today and I was able to get 1750 words done on an overdue fic) and I've been left to scramble on many things. It's been okay, though.

Sometimes I wish I could find a place to settle down and just hang out for awhile. This jumping from fandom to fandom, from purely writing to doing several different things, gets tiring. I feel like I'm just skimming the surface with people. Some people I've gotten closer to thanks in part to common fandoms and Twitter. Some days it is enough.

Just when I start to wish that I was in one place, I think about how many cool things I'd be missing out on if I chose to settle in one place. As much as I hate to say it, I like the skimming the surface because it gives me so many more options. I think I'm afraid to settle but, at the same time, I want to do more. I like being dimensional so that I can hang out at a fic challenge like the Awesome Ladies Challenge and flit from fandom to fandom. I like that it makes me more diverse at 5_prompts so that I'm a better mod.

But sometimes...

Fandom as Life

I sometimes feel like a sheep because I have a tendency to follow people around LJ. They do something fun and then post about it so I think "That sounds fun" and I stop by. Long ago, I used to just stalk journals and wish that I could do the fun stuff that everyone was doing but it seemed like only the cool kids were doing things so I missed out on a lot of really cool stuff.

Then I got the nerve to join in on something and it changed my life. In some ways, it was a good thing and in others, it was the worst possible thing I could have done. If nothing else, it changed how I view the people around me on LJ. I'm not scared to do the cool things that other people are doing because I've realized they are just people. JUST PEOPLE. Like me. Like you. They're no one special... and they are the most special people on the planet.

Lately, I've been spreading myself thin, doing just about everything I can get my hands on. It's been nerve-wracking considering my muse has taken an extended vacation (although she hurried home today and I was able to get 1750 words done on an overdue fic) and I've been left to scramble on many things. It's been okay, though.

Sometimes I wish I could find a place to settle down and just hang out for awhile. This jumping from fandom to fandom, from purely writing to doing several different things, gets tiring. I feel like I'm just skimming the surface with people. Some people I've gotten closer to thanks in part to common fandoms and Twitter. Some days it is enough.

Just when I start to wish that I was in one place, I think about how many cool things I'd be missing out on if I chose to settle in one place. As much as I hate to say it, I like the skimming the surface because it gives me so many more options. I think I'm afraid to settle but, at the same time, I want to do more. I like being dimensional so that I can hang out at a fic challenge like the Awesome Ladies Challenge and flit from fandom to fandom. I like that it makes me more diverse at 5_prompts so that I'm a better mod.

But sometimes...