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I feel as if I'm peddling my legs in the air. Not getting anywhere but definitely working up a sweat.
It's been decided that Gramma needs to stay with my uncle and aunt because he's been out of a job for awhile so can stay with her during the day and then she'll have people around at night. While she's getting around for someone who just had hip surgery, she's starting to show her age.
My mom asked if I'd be willing to stay at Gramma's house more so that it looks like someone is living there. That way they won't have to rent it out. It's a win/win sort of situation. I should be happy and jumping at the chance to be on my own again but something is holding me back. I'm not that happy. I'm not jumping for joy. I can't even explain it even though I opened up this post specifically to try. All I know is that I felt like I was starting to find a niche again and now I won't be able to really find out for sure because I won't be around as much. It makes me sad because I feel lonely and I hate feeling this way.
I don't think it's just because I won't have internet access that's bothering me. Of course, I could get internet access. It's not that much more expensive. There's just so many more other things I need before I get that.
And right now I don't have any sort of money account because I discovered my card had been used in LOS ANGELES of all places and I caught it because they sent my account into overdraft status because they decided to charge $600 at a car place and $60 at staples. I caught it in time but they want 10 days to give me my money back. Luckily it's in time for me to get a real check for payday this Friday.
As always, writing has stalled out. I'm hoping I'll be able to make up some words tonight because I won't be able to be online. That sounds like a nice plan. And you know one of the bright sides to this all? I'll have TV again! Maybe I'll even get some decent fanfic out because I'll have set days and times again. That sort of makes me happy.
It's been decided that Gramma needs to stay with my uncle and aunt because he's been out of a job for awhile so can stay with her during the day and then she'll have people around at night. While she's getting around for someone who just had hip surgery, she's starting to show her age.
My mom asked if I'd be willing to stay at Gramma's house more so that it looks like someone is living there. That way they won't have to rent it out. It's a win/win sort of situation. I should be happy and jumping at the chance to be on my own again but something is holding me back. I'm not that happy. I'm not jumping for joy. I can't even explain it even though I opened up this post specifically to try. All I know is that I felt like I was starting to find a niche again and now I won't be able to really find out for sure because I won't be around as much. It makes me sad because I feel lonely and I hate feeling this way.
I don't think it's just because I won't have internet access that's bothering me. Of course, I could get internet access. It's not that much more expensive. There's just so many more other things I need before I get that.
And right now I don't have any sort of money account because I discovered my card had been used in LOS ANGELES of all places and I caught it because they sent my account into overdraft status because they decided to charge $600 at a car place and $60 at staples. I caught it in time but they want 10 days to give me my money back. Luckily it's in time for me to get a real check for payday this Friday.
As always, writing has stalled out. I'm hoping I'll be able to make up some words tonight because I won't be able to be online. That sounds like a nice plan. And you know one of the bright sides to this all? I'll have TV again! Maybe I'll even get some decent fanfic out because I'll have set days and times again. That sort of makes me happy.
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Date: 2009-11-19 01:36 pm (UTC)From:Good luck with all of it. I'm a bit confused, but then, I'd be confused and conflicted in your position too.
Good luck with the writing. We're all around for support, of course of course!
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Date: 2009-11-19 04:37 pm (UTC)From:But it will work out and be better. I know it will!
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