Odds and Ends

*The Twilight soundtrack is made of goodness. It oozes with wonder and joy! My favorite tracks are (of course) Bella's Lullaby... which I think sounds nothing like it should but I like it based on its own merits regardless... and Leave Out All The Rest by Linkin Park. Paramore is a new find for me from the CD and I went looking for more of their stuff. So much goodness! And Robert Pattinson sings! I have to admit that he looks rather weird as a vampire but he's still my Cedric at heart.

*I am over the 30k word count that I should have been at yesterday. Right now I'm a day behind but I'm hoping to find some time this week to catch up and maybe even get ahead. This weekend won't be the Writing Fest the last one was. We're going to my great-uncle's 90th birthday on Saturday and I'm hoping to convince my parents to go to Quantum of Solace with me (which would keep them from having to watch it endlessly on DVD when it comes out - I promise!)

*Where do abilities and powers come from? This is not a Heroes question (but wasn't tonight's ep so good???!??!!?) but something else entirely. I'm writing something completely separate and I'm scared to have it turn into a mindless knock off of Heroes or X-Men or something along those lines. I want it to be fresh and interesting but yet comforting and (a bit) realistic. I'm leaning toward the paranormal a bit more than I thought I would and that's actually really exciting. I just don't want it to get too mainstream and fanficcy.

*A dead body was found in a pallet of recycled papers in Twin Falls, Idaho! This is BIG news for Idaho. It is a little weird. I work near a recycling compactor that could hold a couple dead bodies if pressed into service for such. Just kind of weird. Be looking for that tidbit on your local news. You never know! It just might be strange enough to make it outside Idaho.

*Popcorn is good writing food.

I'm coming out in this all wrong

Here are the lyrics to the prettiest of Robert's songs on the Twilight soundtrack.

Never Think
( by Rob Pattinson )

*****

A year ago I moved. A whole year has passed. I'm still alive. You may not have realized that. I haven't given you much hope that I still exist. I do, though.

My name is Shelley and I exist in a whole different realm than I did before. I am still me, though. I have not changed. Instead, I find myself trying to make my surroundings fit me. I'm not ready to adapt. I want to stand out. I want to be alive.

This is the last step for me. Coming back here. Trying to see what still exists of my old life. Seeing what kind of new life I can make once again. I don't know if it's possible. I've tried several things this year to make it work and none have worked for long. Mostly because I've tried to adapt. Won't work here, either.

I can't make any promises. Those of you who have stuck with me... Thank you from the bottom of my heart. You have shaped my life just by being around when I thought there would be no one. I owe you more than I can repay.

And so I go on from this moment. A new year is starting for me. The proverbial clean slate. I'm not holding my breath for any miracles, though. *g*