A Lar by any other name

Here are the lyrics to the prettiest of Robert's songs on the Twilight soundtrack.

Never Think
( by Rob Pattinson )

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A year ago I moved. A whole year has passed. I'm still alive. You may not have realized that. I haven't given you much hope that I still exist. I do, though.

My name is Shelley and I exist in a whole different realm than I did before. I am still me, though. I have not changed. Instead, I find myself trying to make my surroundings fit me. I'm not ready to adapt. I want to stand out. I want to be alive.

This is the last step for me. Coming back here. Trying to see what still exists of my old life. Seeing what kind of new life I can make once again. I don't know if it's possible. I've tried several things this year to make it work and none have worked for long. Mostly because I've tried to adapt. Won't work here, either.

I can't make any promises. Those of you who have stuck with me... Thank you from the bottom of my heart. You have shaped my life just by being around when I thought there would be no one. I owe you more than I can repay.

And so I go on from this moment. A new year is starting for me. The proverbial clean slate. I'm not holding my breath for any miracles, though. *g*